August. My birthday month. A month of salt air, of wine bottles sipped away, of Taylor Swift lyrics looping. A month where I feel an intense pressure to make every moment count. This year was a little different, though. I've been carrying a kind of pain I've never known before, and was finally at a … Continue reading Living for the Hope of It All
Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are I wonder if Noah Kahan realised when he wrote the song "You're Gonna Go Far" that he would have changed my life for all time with just one lyric. Probs not. But thank you anyways, Noah. This song is the main song I associate with my exchange year abroad, … Continue reading Be Wherever You Are
SO, its my birthday 🥳 I was going to do a “25 things I learned by 25” post again this year but I decided not to. It’ll be the same cliche things I’ve done for the last few years. Instead, here are three things that I’ve really had to learn and grow through this year … Continue reading QUARTER LIFE CRISIS
I thought I’d had grief down to a T. I experienced two big losses within the space of 6 months before. I thought I’d be ready for the next one. Turns out you’re never ever ready to lose someone you love. Especially when it’s completely unexpected. I’ve been left wondering which form of grief is … Continue reading Hi, it’s grief again.
So I know this is a bit late and it's like halfway through January already, however I really wanted to take the time to sit and think about what I want to get out of this year. Not resolutions that I’ll never achieve or performative goals to make it seem as if I was "productive". … Continue reading 2023 Promises
It’s me. Hi. I’m the problem, it’s me. Another 6 months and I’m finally writing a blog post. This year has been so fully of unexpected changes and surprises. Good and bad naturally. But I think it is time to wrap up the year that was 2022. I find it so hard to describe what … Continue reading Merry Christmas and Happy Existential Crisis!
6 months. Half a year. A space where my life has been flipped upside down and turned back around again. A period of time where I made major life decisions and decided what steps to take in order to become who I want to be. It seems like yesterday that I was writing my 2021 … Continue reading 6 MONTHS IN
2021 - I think I'm still trying to process this year to be honest, but here I am writing my year end post. This one might be a bit more raw than most, but that is a result of this year. This year stripped me completely bare emotionally and I feel it only right to … Continue reading TWENTY TWENTY ONE
I took the featured photo in 2018. I look extremely happy in it (granted I had just had ice cream so who wouldn't be?). I remember being in a very unhappy place in my heart though. I was unhappy with my body. I was stressed about university, I was worried about a friendship of mine … Continue reading PERSPECTIVE
I recently turned 23 (quarter life crisis on its way) and I really struggled to be excited for my birthday this year. For me, it felt as if I was exactly where I was this time last year. With a few minor changes but nothing had significantly changed in my life. I felt as if … Continue reading 23 things by 23
Just Jay 